**sigh...

remember when life used to be simple... when christmas was a time to be excited and there seemed to be so much magic to be looking forward to... whether it be in making craft presents, or getting that break, or playing in the snow, or just to watch endless tv everyday for 2 weeks... how many times i have wished to return to those simple times....

for the passed few years, each christmas has had a different meaning to me... most of them involve studying for exams, and then being home with family. spending time with all the people who i see so little of during the rest of the year.

and its not just christmas, its a lot of other things... everything just seems so complicated. so many shades of grey that I can't really distinguish between them...

a long time ago, when i was a teenage (or it felt like a long time ago...) a good freind of mine gave me a book called chicken soup for the teenage soul. i went on to buy chicken soup for the teenage soul II, and III. he gave it to me because he thought they would help me through my teenage years, when i need something to turn to, because those years were supposed to be the hardest years of one's life, according to those books, anyway. and frankly, my teenage years weren't really that hard. and its probably because i really didnt have any huge decisions to make that would change my life forever.

anyway, i decided taht perhaps the teenage years are the hardest for some people becuase thats when they start to realize the decisions they make can, and will, impact the rest of their lives. see, i didnt learn that lesson until later... and perhaps i had naively thought that since i seemed to have skipped that difficult time in my life, i was somehow safe. that was a rather stupid thought... life just gets harder when decisions have to be made... and anyone who knows me, knows that i cant make decisions... hell, i have trouble deciding on what to get on the menu, how the heck am i supposed to make decisions that affect the rest of my life?? and yet, i seem to be faced with having to make so many lately....

sometimes, a lot of times, i wish that someone could just make them for me... it's too tiring to think so much...

blind

im really like this song by lifehouse... blind... lyrics will follow at the end of this post

im a not risk taker. i try to estimate what will happen next, and try to kinda plan my life in some sort of way. i take precautions and basically take everything one step at a time, cuz i feel in some way that if something happens, at least i'll see it coming. but of course, life doesnt work like that. and i realize that although its hard, thats just how it is. and in then end, the important thing is not if things work out the way you want them to, but if you can catch yourself, or that you have people to care about you when you cant take care of yourself, or cant take care of yourself really well.

its hard telling myself this. its easier to point other people in the right direction, but when you're the one in the situation, its almost hopeless. its like theres 2 me's. one thats rational and another thats emotional.

tough

its been a tough few weeks, but life goes on.

i remember a quote, "the human spirit is stronger than anything that happens to it." maybe i've been thinking of too many things, that just don't need to be thought of.

from now on, i'm just gonna take each day as it comes, be more forgiving to myself, take care of myself more, and just have more fun.

i was not really close with my grandmother, but she was a lady who had lived a happy life. she was a strong woman, who was not afraid to try new things. i really believe that her spirit has helped me get through these times. and of course, my family and friends who have supported me all this time. for everyone who's made me smile, on days when it didn't really seem possible.

a dream...

it all feels like a dream

this week was a blur. a blur of work, work and work, midterms, midterms.... i still havent really gathered my emotions, sorted them out... im not sure when it will hit me, but i think it will soon.

busy...

life's getting busy...
- darrick and i jsut got tickets to see WICKED! im so excited!
- i just got a hallowe's costume, my first "grown up" one, no more bunnies for me
- i dont have to teach calc for 2 weeks! and i get paid!
- hydraulics is hard...
- i can't wait to get my geo textbook, i dont think the course would be so hard, if the notes made more sense, and were more organized... thats what you get for depeding on course notes...
- charlie's lunch box is good
- i like karaoke-ing, theres gonna be some karaoke parties at my house soon... after midterms.. or mebbe during midterms...
- i better be getting some thing concrete from singapore soon
- lifehouse is good
- wicked soundtrack is good
- chinese oldies are good, i dont think i can ever really like new chinese song... they just dont compare...
- im going to sleep, its 10 35

Kareoke-ing

i wonder if i can find the sing-a-long songs of disney and download them. we used to sing to them all the time as kids. and i have gotten my whole house into kareoke-ing again by belting out songs in my room all afternoon (when i supposed to be doing work...)

Hips don't lie...

i love that song... and now everyone in my class knows.

my cellie went off in class yesterday, and since that has never happened to me before, i kinda panicked. and, instead of pressing a button to turn off the sound, like a sane person, i just took my bag and basically ran out of the classroom... and i was sitting in the middle, at least i was in the back....yea.... im embarrassing...

so here i am on a friday night doing hw. well, im sorta doing homework, im also in the process of learning some taiwanese from these new cd i bought when i went to china town last weekend. so far, i sorta learned one song. i wrote out the phonetics next to the characters. its kinda hard to learn / read since was taught to read in mandarin or cantonese, i naturally tend toward the mandarin pronunciation...

a long weekend is coming up... not sure what to do. not sure if i should go home ... darrick had mentioned a trip to montreal mebbe, and i'll have to see how it goes. im kinda hooked on this travelling thing. i love seeing new places, new things, and trying new foods. there is just a feeling that i get when i get to see in real life what i read in books or see on tv. you know that movie, good will hunting... im gonna watch it again, jsut so i can point out all the places i've been to, since it was filmed at harvard. i just think its so kool.

so quite a few people in my class are going into this exchange program. s far, i know of me, jo and pete to singapore the coming january, a couple guys are in australia right now, and a couple girls are in switzerland. im really excited, as the time is nearing...

i think i saw an engagement ring on this girl in my class's finger today. i also knew that another guy in my class got married over the summer and he's a year younger than me. it seems kinda scary that this is happening to people around me. it kinda makes me feel old. i cant help but wonder what i want. its hard to beleive that im in 3B, almost done uni. when i started uni, it seemed that 5 years would be such a long time, and that there was not really a need to think about what to do after. but now, i need to start. its also kinda scary seeing darrick and some of my friends about to graduate in less than a year.... it was almost like these 5 years we were put in a incubator, and now we need to face the real world. its a thought thats both scary and exciting to me.

what i think im afraid of most is screwing up. how do i know if the decision im making is right for me? i mean, there really arent that many life altering decisions that i have had to make so far... just choose what courses to take, where to live, how to budget, what jobs to apply to... but everything was "temporary". after im done with a course, its over.. after a coop term, its done... but all the decisions i make after i graduate are permanent... where to live, what job to take (ts no longer just a 4 month thing, what do i see myself doing for the rest of my life?) all the grown up decisions are on me... and what if i screw up or decide wrong? pick the wrong job... what if i grow tired of the job, or end up not liking it... or what if its too far from my family...

i guess at least i can put these decisons off for a bit more... time to sleep now...

Home

just went home this weekend for a dentist appt on sunday. its nice to be back at home. been thinking bout some stuff. such as what if i were not to work in toronto after graduation. its nice to have my family close. although i feel its almost a different type of closeness now taht im not home that much.

now im just procrastinating. must finish my systems assignment and my work term report and ura.

i just went on someone's website and they had a lot of pics up of them in different "outfits". some looked really really nice. mebbe i should exercise my photography skills. until then, back to systems.....

Back at H2O LO2.... (waterloo)

so its back into the cycle that has become so familiar with me. so there has been a few changes, and some things just dont change. im a bit behind on my postings.

its still kinda hard to beleive taht i've left boston behind me. it was kidna strange leaving on the fung wah bus to new york city with all my stuff in the bottom compartment. i kinda expected an overwhleming feeling of something.... but that didnt happen. in fact, i was listening to my new mp3 player to goo goo dolls - let love in - and it almost felt like a movie, when the person just watches a part of their life go by them and the perfect song is playing in the background. only minus the emotional part.

boston with darrick was a lot of fun. it almost felt like we werent apart for that long, even though it did feel too long at times. unfortunately, the weather was unkind to darrick's stay, and we experienced what i call typical boston weather for 4/5 days that darrick was in boston. typical boston weahter is blah... just rain, rain and more rain. no sunset cruise (due to no sun) to see the city fromn the charles river.... but we did do LOTS of shopping. pics will be posted in my space soon.

nyc was also a lot of fun. although a little short. but then, new york is a place that i like to visit only for a few days. everything happens so fast, everyone is so fast paced. it just gets tiring for me. i would like to go back mebbe for a long weekend or something if its cheap... :D we also saw mamma mia! it was a really good musical, i liked it more than rent. i even have the cd! now to transfer all those songs onto my mp3 player... i think im hooked on this travelling thing. having never travelled much in my life prior to boston, i feel like i cant get enough of it. theres so much to see, experience and taste. and its great sharing it with darrick:).

ne way, back to waterloo and school stuff. ive decided to sign up for a few things this term. such as a URA in the field of buildig science. ive gotten that worked out to be something like a 6 hours a week. and then i also signed up to be a calc TA for the first years once a week for 2 hours. this should be interesting. also hope to be htting the gym more. we'll see how that goes too.

ne ways, parent comgin up tomorrow. to drop off food. which is strange because they never do that, im ususally left to fend for myself for food. but i know there's an alternative motive. and im not too happy about taht nor do i really know how to deal with it. how do you tell someone no when they cant seem to take no for an answer? its really frustrating, and complicated. i've pretty much been living on my own for the past 2 - 3 years, whether it be at school or on work term. of which the previous 4 months were spent in another country on my own, where i worked and paid for everything on my own. it seems taht no matter what i do, it doesnt seem to score points for me being a responsile individual who can make my own decisions. grrrr!!!!

Darrick's HERE

yup, he is! finally!!!

we went around boston on saturday. breakfast with my friends for the last time in a while at 11ish :( and to boston for the rest of the day... to the harbour, to walk downtown and then to penang's for dinner. yummmmmmieess

then yesterday was shopping day for us at the cambridge side galleria mall after lunch at punjabi dhaba! taht place is so goood. chicken tikka masala is still my favourite! and then shop shop shop shop shop.... lots of shopping, lots of goodies and treasures! then to the cheesecake factory for dinner. i actually liked their cheesecake. we got the brownie one with fudge.... yummmy. too much food though, i have the rest for breakfast or lunch today.

ne ways, today is off to capecod to explore. i heard its beeeauutiful! ciao!

21 September 2006

the season premier of grey's anatomy. THE BEST SHOW EVER!!!! cant wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ne way, darricks coming TONIGHT, and getting here tomorrow! i am busy cleaning my messy apartment... cant believe i'll be leaving here soon... *sigh

o yea, and i finished my work term report. just some final touch ups and proofreading, and thats it. im so set. no more scurrying to finish my wtr last minute like last term. i have a good feeling bout this one. my boss is even looking over it for me. he basically wrote my thesis for me. and will look over the analysis and add comments. its been a busy week with work and working on it. but mostly working on it

now to wrap it all up tomorrow.

back to cleaning ... i love febreeze... mmmmmm

Party Animals... at the liquor store

so last night was a blast with gunjeet and wan. wan was another one of the actresses in the play with gunjeet. the liquor store is a club in downtown boston, and its pretty well known here. gunjeet was our leader and she had been one time and enjoyed it. so we went, and had a great time. music was good, drinks a little expensive, but the corona comes in 24 oz, it was huge, and was basically the equivalent to 2 bottles, so it was pretty cheap. nice atmosphere, and i would recommend it.

unlike some of the other clubs, such as sanctuary, roxy's ( i think), and gypsy bar (from what i heard), the guys dont just stand around and actually have fun dancing too. although, i thought it was a bit strange seeing 2-3 guys dancing with one another... ne way, we three hot women, had a good time. wan is a really good dancer, and had a lot of presence and just looked like she was having a great time. i dont think that i could dance like her, i dont know if i have the energy or nerve.. lol, but it was definitely fun just watching her. and she had a really good partner too, and they complimented each other really well. and i feel more comfortable dancing now, and wtih people to dance with, it was even more fun than last time.

my freind, melissa just left for her drive across the country to oregon on thursday ... :(. she's moving back to oregon, and i wont be seeing her for a while. its a little hard to believe and hasnt entirely sunk in, yet. i will miss all the fun times that we had... soup dinners, weekend breakfast, beach times, nyc and just hanging out cuz she's just fun to be around and a good freind. but mebbe its because i've been "prepared" to leave boston, and have been preparing myself to miss everyone here, that it hasnt hit me as hard as i thought it would...

pictures of our goodbye dinners for melissa, and various activities will be posted in my space.

speaking of myspace, what have they done to change it... it seems kinda strange... not sure if i like it...

Breakfast Club in Boston

My friends and I go out for breakfast on the weekends. today we went to the breakfast club diner. its supposed to resemble the 80's movie, breakfast at tiffany's. but ive never seen that movie, so i dont get all the inside jokes on the menu and the decoration in the diner.

i have completely customized my pandora station for 2 songs i really really love. it might be you by stephen bishop and nobody knows by the tony rich project. i havent been able to download the stephen bishop song, so if anyone has it, its on the movie tootsie. let me know! anyway, im so used to living by myself that im accustomed to just singing along quite loudly. but now taht my roomies are back, i guess they'll just have to put up with my singing.

i havent quite decided what to do for the rest of my weekend. today was breakfast, and then i'll work on my work term report for a bit, since im meeting with my boss on monday about it. he told me to not kill myself working on it, so i'll just make some revisions on the river. o yea, i'll be going to the galleria again. going to help my freind find some strappy sandals. she really needs them, and she helped me find a pair last time. then we're just going to hang around the charles river, bring a book a blanket, and just enjoy the rest of summer. not to mention work on my horrible tan lines. my arms are esspecially darker from going out on site, and now my legs are a bit darker from walking around in a skirt with con, car, and jo last last weekend. but unfortunately the tan ends at my ankle from my shoes. so today will hopefully be able to tan my feet a bit. and i just want to wear a bikini. just any excuse to. i havent had too many chances this summer, so i wanna take advantage of it while i still can.

mebbe dancing tonight, since it will be my last weekend to spend with gunjeet and kristina. i will miss these girls nights out. even though i miss darrick so much, going out is fun and takes mind off of being apart. i cant wait for next friday. :):):)

well, enough procrastination, time to work on my work term report. i feel i have made some good progress, but there tons more work to be done. its a good thing im not going to atlanta, then. it would be too rushed.

my application to singapore is going well. i was kinda freaked out that my app is too late, but i will be sending everything in on monday, so it should be ok.

i was just talking to gunjeet yesterday kinda like a reflection of coming to boston. i had many reasons for not coming as well as many reason for coming. and i think that one that i might have subconsciouncsly made, was that i wanted to do something for myself. just to be alone and learn on my own, so to speak. i guess i kinda felt like i was "following" (not sure if thats the right word) darrick a bit, because he went UW and then i went to UW. i know lots of people go to UW, but i guess i kinda saw it that way sometimes. and i guess the boston experience is something entirely mine. and i feel that it was a great expereince, and that i have learned a lot. not only career wise, but also about myself as well. i also feel like i stand up for myself more, as well as more confident. i guess i just feel like a hot and smart woman. and i mean that in a more confident and not a self absorbed way. lol.... it sounded better in conversation and in context. ne way, every women/girl should feel that way , i think. mebbe im just more american...

RIGHT BACK TO WTR!!!!!

Just Being....

its just nice to be a part of boston. like part of boston scenery. just sitting in harvard yard reading, in the shade and its like you belong there. its nice.

ive discovered a few more places to eat. punjabi dahba. yummy indian food. we went for lobster (carolyn) at legal seafoods and its pretty good. also went to a tapas bar in waltham that was pretty nice for farewell party for melissa. nice atmostphere. dali also has good tapas.

and carolyn has come to love au bon pain. what am i gonna do in waterloo.... lol...

it'll be nice to be back in canada, back in good old boring home of waterloo and brampton. adn the occasional trip to toronto. but boston will always be a part of me, too.

family in boston

its so nice to have someone at home when i come home. i miss living with my family. its been a while. but its also nice to live by myself. esspecially when i have to work late or my bus is just being stupid. again.

but car's been here all week, and it's been fun. i almost feel like a local, knowing all these little nooks and cranny places to eat.

i need to work on my wtr. i brought stuff home for this weekend to do. i need to do it. i must do it!!!! before i go back to school!!!!!!!!! DOOOOOOOO ITTTTTTTT.

and i have to apply for NUS. im so scared. i feel its too late or something.... noooooooo

carolyn is a weirdo. she is.

You and Me ... and Boston

i llllooooooooooooveee that song. its been on repeat for 2 days so far! i felt like singing out loud at work, but contented myself with just humming it quietly. hearing that song makes me think of darrick :). esspecially the chorus:

you and me and all of the people
with nothing to donothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know whyI can't keep my eyes off of you

its saturday and con, car and jO are coming. actually they should be here but due to STUPID greyound troubles, they are delayed. you know, they really should organize this transportation thing a lot better if they want people to want to take it. take last weekend in NYC. the subway was horrible! they dont tell you bout delays or route changes until its either too late, or you know its a delay cuz you've been standing there for 20 minutes already. for a city that is known for its transportation, the 2nd oldest subway in america, it sure sucks! and its dirty, and it just doesnt seem like "first nation subway" as my freind put it. and the same with greyhound. im gonna complain. its ridiculous when you cant tell your passengers how to get where their ticket says its going. RIDICULOUS!!!

o and did i mention my tuition is posted. i didnt save as much as i thoght that i would even withour res... i need to start on my WTR. i have a 2 page outline (roughly) and tonnes of work to do. im actually excited about this paper. can you believe that. yea, sounds pathetic, i know. but whats really interesting is that one of my bosses is writing some thign like that but much more in depth for AESHRAE or some other wel known american civil eng. society thing. neat, eh?

fun

kickball is fun. more fun when you get to play. not too bad if you win either.

im so sleeppy. alcohol makes me sleepy. even if its just a little. even if its pbr.

prepare for the heat tomorrow on site. it'll be a hot one. i better not get too much darker. my legs are so behind. ive been putting on tons of sunscreen on my arms, but its not helping too much. i need to stick my legs out a window to even it out.

just finished desert. time to sleep.

i love the song nobody knows. its so sad. i like sad songs. i imagine someone singing it to me, and i think its so romantic. as long as its not the stalker type obsession kinda thing. lalalalalala

short skirts & strappy sandals

ive been corrupted. i dont recall a summer or any other season/time when i have worn skirts and sandals so much. its so fun. i blame it on the sgh girls. lol. my new addiction to skirts, tops, dresses, jeans, and of course, SHOES! i cant stop thinking bout this dress at jacobs. its so nice. i think thinking bout it for 2 weeks is enough to justify buying it right?

im also getting kinda dark. my arms and face ne way. it cant be helped. i go out on site at least twice a week, and its hot. not to mention sunny. and humid.

con, car, and jO are coming up this weekend. im so excited!!! and after that darricks coming up! im so luved. i already have this weekend planned out. tour guide cat to work!

i think ive been reading too many good books. because i could notice the last book i read sucked. i just felt that the words were hollow. that the characters werent deep enough. the whole situation didnt even seem real to me.

im getting to be a good cook. if i say so myself. i just made a new chicken recipe. now to fine tune it. cant wait to test it out on some guinea pigs.

im getting lots of work at work. i hope i can squeeze in time to write my work term report!

o yea, im going kareokeing this thursday. i can get used to girls night out all the time. its fun.

wahoo my nail polish is dried. time to sleep.

o yea. i now know why quick dry was invented. i applied my nail polish at home, waited 10 minutes, left for harvard square to catch the subway (a 15 min walk). when i reached into my wallet to get my token, my nails were still ruined! who has time to wait for their nail polish to dry?!

Ontario - Yours to Discover

ive been paying attention to the different license plates of the different states on cars. some are interesting, some are morbid and some just kinda silly. here are a few i rememeber:
Massachusett - The Spirit of America
Maine - Vacation Land
Rhode Island - Ocean State
New Jersey - Garden State
New Hampshire - Live Free or Die (see? morbid...)
Houston - The Lone Star State

Its cool today. a nice break from the high humidity we've recently been hit with. this summer is just flying along. i feel like im just on one big long vacation. ive been going to the beach with some freinds the past few weekends, in my brand new yellow string bikini :D. and ive been going on site for at least a couple times a week for the passed little while, and until the end of my work term. hopefully i dont get too dark. ive been exfoiliating and using sunscreen, and hat.

i used to long for the school term to start because i would be so bored on my work terms. i do like learning stuff, even tho its stressful at times, but it something that i enjoy and keeps me busy. plus, i actually get out more. but im learning so much here now, and ive been going out more than ive ever had before. lol. its like a big long vacation with just the right mix of work and fun. so even though im looking forward to going back to canada, starting school, and seeing everyone, its definitely different from my previous work terms.

now its time to clean my room, do some laudry and mebbe some more shopping. i really wanna get a nice summer dress. at least one. and some new shoes. im just starting and learning to get the hang of shoes. its fun. i have enough for tuition now. i wonder how much tuition has gone up. at least $500. my hair is getting longer now.

con and carolyn and mebbe jO are gonna come down for the civic holiday weekend. thats so kool.. im really excited and have almost planned out the entire 2 days that they will be here! hopefully it will be a nice weekend and not pour... that could be askig for a lot, ive now learned.

my roomie walks around the aartment sometimes dressed in only a towel, or a pair of his really short 80's style bright red shorts. guys should not wear shorts that short. my friends liked it though. lol... i have a picture of him and some papayas i wanted to show my parents, but im debating it cuz i could not cut out his short red shorts from the picture. the papayas were really cool though cuz they were so huge. we only have small ones in canada. my mom would love that.

ne way, time to crank up the music and clean my room. favourite song at the moment: In Over my Head (Cable Car) by THe Fray. LOOOOOOve that song! i think im gonna get taht cd. o yea.. and www.pandora.com is really kool. you enter a song and they build an entire radio station around that song, and you can have up to 100 stations. NEAAAATO!

Pet Peeves Part II

ok im getting cranky... working 2 weeks on this site is getting to the point where we're tired of each other. in summary:

- the people are less cooperative
- my boss makes me wait for him to fnish his STUPID breakfast every SINGLE morning
- there are so many parking lots in cleveland... where are all the CARS?!
- i have been wearing a 20 pound harness for the past 2 days
- people are difficult in general
- im tired of eating out, and no longer feel hungry nemore
- i miss my own cooking
- i miss my mom's cooking
- i miss eating with people who know how to hold a conversation
- i miss society
- i miss the beach
- i wanna get these shoes at DSW, two pairs im debating.... after all the OT these 2 weeks, i can get both!!!
- i need a new bathing suit, im thinking string bikini?? or halter?
- i miss my family, i miss my darrick, and my friends

Pet Peeves in the last 2 weeks

can you tell i have time on my hands. this is my third post in 2 days...
i have a lot of waiting to do on this job, since my company is just observing and we dont need to be part of the set up... so one of the first things i do in the morning is wait for the other guys to set up, which can take from an hour to a few hours depending on what is being set up.

ne ways, to my pet peeves:
- there are way too many parking spaces / parking lots / parking garages and other parking complexes in general in cleveland. theyre mostly empty ne way!!!

- people drive way to slow here. i mean EVERYONE is going the speed limit and not one mph over. i feel like im moving around at the rate of a turtle!

- yesterday, my cab driver was drivng the entire trip from the botanical gardens to my hotel at 35 mph. when he saw a cop, he slowed down even more! and then, he started to slow down at EVERY SINGLE intersection!!!

- too many people begging for money in downtown cleveland, when there's barely anyone here

- people seem to have nothing better to do but chat uptourists. i guess i must have "tourist" written on my forehead or seomthing

- sports maniacs. i didnt even know that cleveland indians or cubs or browns was a team before last week. too many sports bars to cater to these sports maniacs.

- weather is so crappy. it was a beautiful weekend, but the entire week was bad. and this week looks the same too. apparently this is normal clevelane weather. blah!!!

- this job has too many rules. we had to wait almost 15 min for a door to a room to be opened. its not even occupied!!! its empty, and we just stored all our stuff in there. too many rules, and everything has to go back to one guy.

- i hope i dont get fat from eating out for 2 weeks straight. i try to order healthy stuff, but i dont know if it does much good.

- whats the big deal bout the grand prix? its here in cleveland this weekend. well, the weekend that just passed.

- o another one about cleveland! everything down town closes really early!!! like before or at 6pm! ok, mebbe not evertyhing, but a lot of things. and there isnt much selection for shopping either. or anything except eating out.

- i miss brampton, waterloo, and toronto. i miss boston. boston is pretty similar to toronto, minus the bad drivers, and narrow and crazy roads.

- people always say "z" as zee instead of zed.

- im not sure how i'll go back to no air conditioning...

- this isnt a pet peeve, but i cant wait to move into myhouse with con and elaine! im so excited! im really enjoying my work term, but i'll be ready for a change soon. and i kinda like hitting the books every 4 months. its straight forward. we'll see, i might regret saying that after a few weeks of FIVE technical electives!! lol...

- still waiting... mebbe i should watch the test set up. letsee if theyre doing ne thing yet.

Cleveland take 2: part 2

so i just came back from dinner with myself. its a little strange dining by myself in a restaurant, since i usually go with at least one other person. but its also kinda nice. no need to worry bout making conversation and you can just concentrate on the food and wine. im starting to try different wines and contrary to what i first thought, i dont like sweet wines. in fact, i mostly prefer dry wines.

tonight i just spent (well the company ne way) almost $50 on dinner. well, the company doesnt pay for alcoholic beverages so i wont be expensing all of it. i had seafood tonight, and i made sure that i didnt eat too much during the day so that i could enjoy dinner. it was worth it. i had a halibut seared crusted with potatoes. it was so moist and delicious. and a glass of white wine - silverado (cali wine). yummie.

i went to the botanical garden in the afternoon and it was really nice. i wish that i could have stayed there longer, but i had left later in the afternoon, thanks to my bad scheduling and waiting for my laundry to finish, so i only had about 1.5 hours to tour the entire place.

i think my favourite was the rose garden, and the costa rica greenhouse. the butterflies were so cool! they flew around and just fluttered all the time so i couldnt really take a picture unless they landed on something. i almost ran into some.

o yea. the other day i used a bowl and it was left on the counter of my kitchen of my hotel room. when i came back that night, it was gone. i thought that they just took it, and i just opened my dishwasher for some reason. and there was my one bowl. they had put my one bowl in the dishwasher and ran it. FOR ONE BOWL!!! such a waste....

well tomorrow is gonna be another day of work. hopefully all goes well. :) u knwo with all the pictures i need to take for this project, im sure that i would have expensed enough to get a new camera... lol

Cleveland Take 2: update

so i've been in cleveland for about a week now. and only one more week of work here. then i get to head over to texas to visit my relatives.

its not the greatest thing staying in a hotel for the weekend by yourself. right now im waiting for my laundry to fnish up while watching miss congeniality 2. and cleveland is not a really nice place, i think. the downtown area where im staying ne way. things close very early, except for the sports bar around here. theres not too much selection of food, or they are closed when i want to eat. such as oustide the 9 - 5 on monday s to friday. there is also a lot of poverty here. i mean, in toronto, there would be alot of people downtown, and one would almost expect poor people to be asking for money. but here, downtown is very empty, and there is still a lot of people who ask for money on the streets. and people are too talkative here. i dotn like going out alone, because i get approached a lot and it makes me uncomfortable. i think thats just how things are here in cleveland.

i went to the rock and roll hall of fame yesterday. i dont know much about rock and roll at all. i think that the most interesting thing was seeeing all the outfits that different people where on stage and in music videos. if my laundry ever finishes i would like to tour a bit more. although, i think im ready to go home soon, and eat some normal food. home cooked food.

o yea, i forgot to mention that i saw a man dressed as a women last weekend. at the sandwiche shop, he was the cashier. it was interesting.

i cant believe that my midterm evaluation is coming up soon. its been passing so fast. i hope its a good one. cuz im been working hard. lol... i brough the specs for the other project im working on. just in case. mebbe i'll read it over dinner tonight. well, at least the OT will help with singapore.

i've been thinking of gettng a pet. ever since i lived with coco last work term, and met my friends new house cat here in boston. mebbe i'll just a fish. i hope it will not cause troubles when i go through customs.

i swear

i swear by the the moon
and the stars in the sky
and i swear like the
shadow that's by your side
i see the questions in your eyes
i know what's waiting on your mind
you can be sure i know my part
'cause i stand beside you through the years
you'll only cry those happy tears
and though i make mistakes
i'll never break your heart
and i swear by the moon
and the stars in the sky i'll be there
i swear like the shadow that's by your side
i'll be there for better or worse
till death do us part
i'll love you with every beat of my heart
and i swear

i'll give you every thing i can
i'll build your dreams with these two hands
we'll hang some memories on the wall
and when (and when) just the two of us are there
you won't have to ask if i still care
'cause as the time turnes the page
my love won't ever age at all

and i swear (i swear) by the moon
and the stars in the sky i'll be there (i'll be there)
i swear (and i swear) like the shadow that's by your side
i'll be there (i'll be there) for better or worse
till death do us part i'll love you
with every single beat of my heart and i swear

and i swear (i swear) by the moon
and the stars in the sky i'll be there (i'll be there)
i swear (and i swear) like the shadow that's by your side
i'll be there (i'll be there)
for better or worse (better or worse)
till death do us part i'll love you
with every single beat of my heart
i swear i swear i swear

i lOOOOOOOOOOVe that song
i've been listening to it for 2 days straight, at work and on the way home.
i wish that love songs like that could be written today.. sigh

ne way, work has just been a blur the past few days...
im not sure exactly what im doing, but im constantly running around the office, looking for people, getting stuff ready, etc...

preparing for cleveland i need to be careful to bring all that i need with me. speaking of which, i should prob be packing tongiht for that since im heading out to new york right after work friday. i think i need to buy more socks and undies... i need it to last more than 2 weeks... and no, i will NOT flip them over!

i actually have 2 really great projects that i kinda had to choose between, and thats a first for me. they were both long term projects, so i wanted both. :) in the end, i got what i wanted :D and i could start one of the tomorrwo and continue with it when im back in boston again. so im happy about that.

so im really thinking taht i have this thing with being the best. well, not really the best... but i always strive for it. i strive for it in academics, and i also strive for it in work. im beginngin to think that sgh might be one of the best consultants that i could be working for. im not sure if there are better structural / building tech people out there. and i find that so appealing. i mean, when i was little, my mom always encouraged me and helped me with chinese hw, so i was always no. 1 in class, of course it was a small class but still, i had to numero uno. and even when i went to mississauga for a year, i still strived for it, even tho i was in bigger pool of competition. i guess its the competitive streak in me... or is it me just always pushing... i have no idea... just hinking bout this for the passed few days. especially now that im choosing courses. i want the best courses that could provide me with the best foundation for future courses, and eventually work. well, this is prob how a lot of people are, ne way, why settle for less...

im really liking my bob cut:)... mebbe darrick will let me keep it when i go back to toronto. my roommates suggested taht i just cut it before i go back. :P i wouldnt be that sneaky, now would i?! lol....

o yea. i had my first kickball practice last night after work and it was a lot of fun. i was so disappointed today when practice was cancelled due to rain! it was only 60% chance! and it was less than 1 mm of rainfall. when i pointed this out to the captain, he and some other crew members just laughed at me, and said something like, 1mm?? how much is that? si units, man! geez, those americans...

kickball, what is it? its soccer baseball for those of u who remember it from elementary school. baseball, except you kick the ball. it was really funny seeing my boss and some of the other guys and girl engineers playing. and they would make fun of one antehro and make comments like a couple of kids playing. it was funny. like the way my boss and some of the engineers would make fun each other when one fails to catch a fly ball or soemthing like that. and then the imitations are also really funny. i'll miss it when im in cleveland :(. i thin i need to practice catching and kicking. practice in general.

ne way, i realize that ive been really lazy and not posting pics. i'll get to it. soon. mebbe tongiht. after i pack. mebbe.

goodnties!

just me

its been quite the experience so far for this internship in boston. ive just been talking to my parents last night and i just kinda feel like a little girl thats just had her eyes opened up and seeing more of the world. i guess thats one of the things i hope to accomplish when i came to boston. kinda in an unconscious way. ive always been brought up in a protected environment, and even when i went away for uni, it was like i was always in arms reach. and besides, waterloo is not exactly a place where people go and get corrupted, all people do is work, ne way. lol

ne way, my point is that i know that there is so much in the world that i would like to learn about and experience. and i just feel really lucky this term to be able to do that. ive never been travelling before, but in just a little over a month, i've travelled more than i have in my entire life. ive stayed in hotels longer than i have in my entire life. it just doesnt really feel real. i feel like ive been given a really good oppurtunity and im trying to take advantage of it as much as i can.

i havent really wrote about cleveland and new york, and i think i will in this entry cuz it was pretty neat, even though they were short.

new york was really fun, even though i wasnt there for all that long. i want to go back again for a little longer. i love the food there. there so many diffferent things to try. there was even an egg custard store that just made egg custard. and there was even cantolope and strawberry flavours. i was quite amazed. i also saw live frogs hopping around the bottem of barrels in the market. i even had my first taste of frog legs. it really does taste like chicken. to me, the texture is almost a cross between fish and chicken. really tender. also good. although i was kinda grossed out since i had only seen frogs hopping about earlier in the day. but it was peer pressure, and i should try new things. so there.

also, people drive really crazy. as my uncle put it, new yorkers drive with one hand on the wheel and the other one on the horn. my cab driver was a nut. o yea, i had also ridden in more cabs that week than in my entirwe life. i was in those yellow cabs that you see on tv. i thought it was pretty cool. :)

i really love trying new food. i think thats what i'd like to do more of when i get the chance to travel. theres a really good buffet place in flushing called east manor. it makes mandarin look like micky d's and it basically costs the same. also a really good dim sum place in flushing by 37th and main st. the food there is actually steamed! and i really liek the little stores that are family owned and stuff too. they had some really really yummy dumplings...

ne way, on to cleveland. well i actually didnt get to do much in cleveland except work alot. i was only there for 3 days, 2 nights. and the first night i was exhausted from about 2 hours of sleep and waking up at 3 to catch a 6 am flight, only to arrive in cleveland and start working until 5 30pm.... i was ready to collapse on my king sized bed at 7 30 right after dinner. o yea, im prob repeating this stuff cuz it kinda sounds familiar, but whatever. its my recap time. so the king size bed is amazing...and i have a double bed here. how can i ever go back to my dinky twin bed?! lol... j/k. ive been in a twin bed my whole life, i prob dont move enough to notice the difference.

ne way, i was staying in the room closest to the exit! i mean closest. there wasnt even a room across the hall from me. it was kinda creepy. for one thing, being in a hotel by myself is new to me, and being at the very end of the hallway is creepy. not to mention all the csi i watch, that room is known as murder central. for easy access to the exit for the killer escaping of course. ne way, i know its a show and all, but i did feel spooked just the same and was glad that i was only there for 2 nights.

i have to say, the crown plaza was not quite as nice as the marriot. yes, that is my humble opinion based on the 3 hotels i have stayed in for the past... idunno.... 8 - 10 years... lol

ne way, thats about it for travelling. it has been a really exciting. i feel like small town girl just seeing the "world" or something. lol

also, the people i work with at work are really amazing. not only are they all really knowledgable in their fields, like experts, i really feel like they're making an effort to show me different aspects of building technology and getting me experience, and out in the field. i get to talk to the principals (they are the partners in the firm) and i dont feel like the burden coop. i actually feel like a coop that can help, and they are interested in training. and thats a good feeling. havent felt taht in a coop term yet.

its kool how someone explained the role of consultant. and i know its biased cuz he's a consultant, but still, i'll share. see, all the places i've worked, there was someone you could turn to and hire to solve ur problem. but being consultants, they have to be the one with the answers, there's not really anyone else they can turn to for the answers. they are kinda the end of the line. so its kinda kool. and no wonder it cost so much for their time. i was just tallying up my expenses and work time when i went to cleveland. and im an intern. i can only imagine what it cost to have my boss there.

it was funny, he said to me, either they (the people who hired us) will tell us to leave cuz they cant afford to pay us, or we will leave because they arent paying us enough. lol... well it was funny when he said it. and darrick laughed when i told him. :)

i have more news, but it can wait. :P i miss my darrick and my family very much. but im also really glad i came. i hope i can grow with this experience.

ne ways, it has been a long day. pilates at lunch was a good work out, but now im beat. good nite all!

Its raining again

yea it is... but its actually a good thing cuz we needed the rain for a leakage survey at work. and we got rain. now its supposed to rain until sat... i guess we wished a little too hard for rain.

i actually came home and had a little time to cook today. wahooo... and was paid for travel to and from the site too! expenses is pretty kool

watched sue thomas fb eye. she and jack look so cute together.

ive been searching for some flights to go home for my next long weekend. but all ive come up with are to expensive. and even the ones that are not direct fligths cost a lot. i dont want to take the grey hound and waste 2 days travelling... so im not sure what to do with my holiday.

i cant beleive its been 6 weeks almost. what have i been doing here that makes time go by so quickly?! i learned that sgh might actually be recruiting specifically from uw because of the bulding science part of our curriculum. its kinda wierd. i havent thought much about what i want to do after graduation yet.

speaking of school, i got rankings back. good results, so me happy. rankings are hard to believe sometimes, when i see it, i just wonder who those people are that are a) above me b) below me. not that its a big deal, but i just wonder.

some people are jerks. more specifically some guys are jerks. girls are called something else. yea, some people just make me angry. thats right, angry! ....

ne way, gonna either sleep or read for a bit. its only 9 15....

travelling

work is getting pretty interesting now. i get to work on actual projects and even travelled to cleveland. that was something that i had not anticipated.

its gonna be too hard to catch up on the stuff i missed while neglecting my blog.

ive learned that its hard to build a building properly. sealants dont seal a building from water coming in, a proper drainage system does. if designed properly, that buildng can withstand a hurricane without sealant and still not leak. thats really kool.

people dont really know what they're buying. its a really bad idea to buy a buiding if you cant walk around and check for damages. now i will rthink about buying a condo.

i think this is the first work term that i can picture myself doing after graduation. its really exciting and problems are always dfferet. people always find new ways of building bad buildings. its really like csi for buildings. given a set of circumstances, you run tests, look for evidence and try to peice together what happened and how to fix it. the peopel there are also really great to work with. im amazed by how much expertise everyone has. there is a lot of room for advancement. its weird, i can kinda see a future almost... which hasnt happened to me on a work term yet. but we'll see.

ive been pleasently surprised taht waterloo is one fo the only schools that have a buidlign technology courses offereed at the undergraduate level. they're gonna hire 3 more coops next term from uw. and ive been talkig to one of the people interviewed and they said they were realy impressed with both myself and the previous coop. it made me feel really good.

ive been spending a lot of money. i went shopping a abercrombie yesterday. i do like their stuff, they fit very nicely. but as darrick always tells me, im too cheap. and it almost felt awkward buying it. but it was nice and i really like my new clothes. :)

im so busy. work is really busy. i like to be busy, cuz it keeps me from thinking too much. missing people. but at the same time, i want to miss people. so that i dont feel so robotic or soemthing. not sure that makes sense. im trying to find a flight home, but so far ive been finding really expensive flights.

2 new cities in a week :)

so ive been busy enough at work. enough to keep me there all day, and come back to not much time with myself before just falling asleep and repeating the cycle again. work is going alright, starting to pick up more that deadlines are coming up.

so im heading out to new york this afternoon. need to finish packing my clothes and stuff. im meeting up with my uncles and aunts that i havent seen since 2 summers ago. so that will be nice. gonna head out for some breakfast with some friends fromwork soon. even though im just starving now. and have been hungry since about 8 30 when i got up. actually i got up closer to 8... whats wrong with me... i cant seem to sleep in. and its not like i get up super early for work either, at 7 00....

ne way, i get to go to cleveland, ohio to help out on some testing. i just found out yseterday, so im really excited. reeallly excited. i get the whole package, flight, hotel, everything. :D i hope i can stay involved in this project. it was pretty crazy scrambling to get stuff done yesterday. i havent decided if i like that rush. mebbe i do.

i cant believe its been a month. darrick has midterms in a week. and just doesnt feel so soon. i need to do more sight seeing. things long distance have been going much better this time around. mebbe because im busy now. when i have time on my hands, to be bored and to think too much, ive been told im troublesome. :P havent decided what to do with my independence day holiday. thats a 4 day weekend.

ne way, time to shower and pack. i'll take lots of pics in new york.

i dotn get comments ne more. :(

Boston Buses Suck

yea... ive had a bad 2 days with the buses.

im liking my short hair now that ive gotten used to it. it usually takes me bout a week or so to get used to it, as well as that long for my hair to adapt to it.

im reading "the devil wears prada" im not sure if im tired of the chick lit yet. but so far, this is not better than something blue.

im so tired. its not even 10pm and i think im gonna call it a night and sleep. so sleepy.

skype is kool. i can make calls to phones. for free. wahoo. :)

im going to new york for this long weekend. gonna see my uncles and aunt that i havent seen since 2 summers ago. im looking forward to it.

i get paid tomorrow. it better go thru. grrrrr

i bought a new bag. those purse / bags that are supposed to go with anything u wear. lets hope it does.

i went to the gym today. tried hip hop dancing. it was a disaster. i think i'll stick to pilates. at least taht works my abs. im just lost most of the time, and my feet dont know how to move. i think i might of pulled something. my leg felt weird.

theyre interviewing the new coop from uw next week. my american boss said to my canadian boss that he had to be there to translate. lol... i get stuck with canadian jokes. someone demanded to know what i was doing wearing gloves in may. it was cold this morning!

so far, my favourite coffee flavours at work: french vanilla, hazelnut, and breakfast blend. yummy. how can i ever go back to just normal coffee after having "gourmet" coffee every morning. mebbe its not "gourmet" its just gourmet to me.

they dont drink aberfoyle here, they drink poland springs. yup, its everywhere.

time to sleep. miss u darrick! miss u, con and car, and my parents! and jo! and everyone back in canada! it doesnt even feel like its almost been a month.

o yea. people here have never head of boston pizza and think its an outrageous thing. i went to pinochio's pizza (apparently its been around forever) its a teeny tiny pizza place tucked in a corner just off jfk street. its pretty good. too bad my pizza fell on the ground. 5 second rule! yea... i ate it. gross? mebbe...

o ya, theres also this little coffee shop in harvard sq, called peets. yummy. there white mocha is really good. this is more for my benefit, so i remember where all the good places are to go back to. :)

Finally... SUNSHINE!!!

so after more than a week, practically a week and a half of rain, rain and more relentless rain, i get my first glimpse of sun again. i swear, my eyes were so adjusted to no sun, that i had to blink and had some tears cuz it was so bright. this was of course at around 7:00 at night though, so that just tells u how "bright" the sun could have been. lol...

o today was a long day. just got home, and about to take a shower cuz ive been out all day since 8 00 this morning until basically 7 something on site checking leakage at the boston convention center. it was not cool, but its my first time doing field work, so it had that excitement in it. it was basically a poorly designed building in terms of waterproofing, and there are leaks everywhere. we were looking on one of the roofs, and making detailed notes and taking pictures of each and every leak. i kept bumping my head in the crawlspace areas that we had to get to ... ouch.... it really hurts. i mustve bumped my head at least a few dozen times. :(

welll, off for a relaxing shower. it was very dirty there, but at least i had a hat on. o yea... hehehe... the roof is flooded so i had to get rainboots, but as you know, its been raining for so long in boston that rainboots were almost sold out at homedepot, where i went. they had 5 boots left. not 5 pairs, 5 boots. and they are all right feet. only 2 of them were the same size, size 9 mens. im a size 7 womens. but i got it anyway, i had no choice. so basically, i had my sneakers under neath it, stompling along clumpsily in my basically size 11 shoes. but at least i was dry!

i feel like making somehting warm and comforting tongiht.... we'll see... what i come up with.

Grey's Anatomy!! BURKE!!!!

is that how u spell burke!? ne way, he's my favourite character, i think.

HOW COULD THEY END IT LIKE THAT?!?!

good thing i can watch the end of it tomorrow!!! if i had to wait a week!!!! THATS TORTUREEEEEEEE!!!

i will not be able to concentrate tomorrow! cannot concentrate on ANYTHING until i watch GREY's ANATOMY!

Still Raining...

when it rains in boston, it doesnt stop. this has been true for the past week, and will continue to be true for the next week as well. in my time here, i have only seen a total of mebbe 3 -4 sunny days. yuck! it didnt even rain this much in waterloo. when i say raining, i mean raining everyday for almost 2 weeks!!!

yesterday i went to "diego's" for a haircut. its pretty well known in boston for its haircuts. and darrick insisted that i go somewhere professional if i do get a hair cut. the service was very good, and people very friendly. and i do like my new cut. its quite a bit shorter than it used to be, so i think it takes me some time to adjust, but i like it. im waiting for my face to clear up so i can appreciate the cut fully. ive been breaking out a bit, and i think its finally going down. grrrr... i hate it when that happens.

well, i walked in the rain yesterday cuz it was then or i'd have to wait for another week, and like i mentioned before, my hair was really pissing me off being all limp and stuff. so, i took the trek. against my roommates advice, cuz they said it was raining too hard to go out, but told me to be careful. they're really nice, and have made my transition here so much nicer. so off i went in the rain, with my trusty umbrella and my scribbled google map on the back of an envolope. mebbe it was me, mebbe it was google maps, i blame it on the google map, but i got lost again. the roads here are kinda crazy. they wind, they loop, they go in every which way, and fork into different roads. grr.... what a day to get lost. i could hear the water in my shoe squishy by the time i got close enough to the hair salon. o and i experienced the full meaning of capillary action. my jjeans were soaked passed my knees!!! o.... it was not fun.

ne way, i asked the lady to feel free to do whatever she felt would be nice with my hair. i didnt mind a little makeover. but i did also mention that i have had long hair for a while and my bf likes long hair. but as long as its not passed my ears or a mohawk, anything is fine with me. i like change sometimes.

the hair dresser lady really loved me hair. and kept complimenting about how smooth it was and that i really didnt need to do much to style it. so it made me feel more confident in my new hair cut. i took some pics, but i want to take some nice pics before posting them up in msn space.

gonna go do some laudry soon. cooked zuchinni pasta, bean salad, and a zuchinni and tomatoe soup today. i really like cooking. and when i cook for myself, its nice to have it last all week (sometimes). my roomies really like my pasta too, and even taught me a garlic and oregano yogurt sauce that went really well with it. i had a lot of zuchinni left, and i really didnt want to go out and do grocery shopping todya. but i must go sometime i suppose, since i cant exactly wait until it stops raining to go, which would usually be the plan. mebbe i'll just go across the street to the convenience store instead or something. arrrg.... this weather is so depressing. note to self, may is not a good time to be visiting boston.

i also found this game that i loved playing in grade 5. its called where in the world is carmen sandiego. and i honestly thought it was the greatest game ever. so ive been playing for the past few days. im a private eye now:).

Another day in London

another cold and rainy day. i dont think even waterloo weather was this bad. heck, im still wearing my winter jacket!

well, not much happened today. i took the moring off to apply for my social security number, and work was really slow. really slow. i hate slow times, it makes me think too much. think about home, missing home, missing friends, and missing darrick. it was just a bit of an over whelming feeling today.

i went to the gym again. i was in some kickboxing cardio class. theres a hip hop jam at until 7 30. but i didnt really feel like waiting for the bus in the dark and in the cold. so mebbe another time. i do wanna go to it sometime, it sounds interesting. it will also be interesting to see myself dance to hip hop. lol...

im gonna read parts of somethign blue again. ooooo.... i think im likeing soomething blue more. even though i like rachel's character more, there's just something in a changed character that makes me have more sympathy towards. but this change is character is really drastic, and at times, unrealistic, but ... the rest of the book makes up for it.

i might sleep soon. even though its only 9 17pm. ive been getting some zits, and sleep usually makes them go away. theres a really big one on my forehead:(. o yea, my hair is really annoying me these passed few days. idunno if its my shampoo or something, but its really really flat. and i hate that! grrr.... i found a place called diego on the loft. ne ways, its a hair salon thats apparently very well known for their make overs. im debating going. i want someone who knows that they are doing to do soemthign to my hair. cuz i honestly have no idea what looks good. i just want them to take control and do something. soemting that i will love and would have never thought of myself.

see, darrick doesnt want me to cut my hair. buts its really annoying me now, cuz its so long. but, he might let me, if i go to a nice place, thats actually professional, and no "$10 hair cuts". that might be the rule. i called up this place and asked how much they charge, and its starts at $45 and goes up depending on who cuts my hair. ouch. but, im debating. and mebbe i should have a real professional hair cut. we'll see.

Am I in London?

there are two reasons why i could be in london. i) its crummy weather, just cold, dreary and rainy ii) the book i just finished, the main character is in london. see, when i get into a book, i feel like im that character, and i even catch myself sorta acting like that character at times. yesterday on the bus, i expected the people to have english accents, and then i remembered that i was not in london. yea... im weird

so ne way, i should be sleeping now, as it is passed my bedtime. but i forgot that i have the morning off to get my ssn, so im gonna sleep in a bit. if u count sleeping until 7 30 sleeping in.

well, i jsut had to gush a bit of the book im reading. its called something blue, by emily griffin. i lOVE it! i cant really tell if i like this one more or something borrowed more. this one was predictable, but i love it any how. i just love it when a good book makes u cry, and there were parts that i just had a really good cry over. i thnk i like it more when the main character is flawed, and they learn from their mistakes. its almost better than a heroine who was perfect to begin with. so i think that i like something blue more for that reason.

ne way, work is going. chugging along. i have learned a bit anout the building code of new york state. its actually pretty similar, format wise and stuff. and its not too interesting but i know that its stuff that i will have to deal with later on. so a little run down on the project taht im working on is fireproofing that has collapsed in a grocery store. and my job is to find out if fireproofing is required after the bad stuff is ripped out, and if so, how much. there is currently about 3-4 inches of it, which is way too much, the selfwieght of that itself is about 15 - 20 lbs. so they're not kidding when they say building code. unless someone teaches you how to read it, its hard to learn. i was atually going about the whole thing backwards, until my boss shed the light and explained to me how to read the tables and all the exceptions and stuff. so much legal stuff, harde to understand sometimes cuz there is double and even triple negatives sometimes.

have 2 little projects on my plate. just literature searches for some articles that my boss is writing and hoping to publish in a well known scientific journal for a client. who knew that there was research in to hand rails@!? the other paper is oon progressive collapse. which is when a little thing causes unproportionate amount of damage. so that should be more interesting that hand rails. we'll see.

must bring umbrella. or else i'll end up wearing a garbage bag to keep dry / warm. i wonder if you're supposed to offer your umbrella if someone is standin with you in the rain and they done have one. i think i wouldve. obvioulsy i was not offered one, today. hence the garbage bag.

i did go see boston a bit on the weekend. details to follow. pics to be psted. but later. i shouild sleep.

o yea, i joined a gym. its right by my work! so its conveneint. lucky for me, theres another location by my house too. :) theres aother long story that goes with that.

i like to cook, it makes me feel comfy and homey. i think i need a hair trim / cut. my hair is not behaving nciely in the mornings.

thats all. goodnite

First Friday of Work

nuthun much happened today. got dumped with a bunch of paper work. so far, i have 2 paper cuts. :(

i joined a gym today. its right next to my work, practically in the same building. i have no excuse not to join. im not sure when i should be going. i could go in earlier, they also have special classes throughout the day. or i could go after work, but i dont wanna stay too late. i'll prob go with something in between early or during lunch.

i'll be doing some research in fireproofing on monday. so im looking forward to doign something new. and hopefully exciting.

i need to buy stuff, but still must wait for paycheck first. i've been wearing my boots at work, the heeled ones cuz they go with my dress pants. im not sure if i wanna wear heels. im wondering if it will make me seem to girly. like mebbe i cant do some of the field work ro somehting. well, ihave no choice now, cuz its that or running shoes. and i denfinately dont want to go with the running shoes.

might go touring tomorrow. still awaiting confirmation from other coops. its hard when no one has a phone, except me, and we call communicate by msn and email.

i wanna get the book, "something blue" i wanna know the story from darcy's point of view. but i still think that i will like "somethign borrowed" more. i think im similar to rachel in many ways. except, of course the part about stealing her best freinds' fiance. although, i do believe she has her reasons.

Gloomy Days

well, its been a while since i updated. i have gotten to my new home safe and sound for those of you still wondering. despite earlier delays at the airport. the past 2 days have been gloomy. rainy and cold. at least today wasnt windy. i dont mind rain and cold taht much if its not windy. :)

my new home is nice. i actually just moved into my room officially last night, and everything is still in my suitcase. i'll do the cleaning this weekend since i'll have more time. most of the weekday, i just wake up, go to work, come back, eat and watch tv, talk, then sleep. and i havent even done any over time yet. but ive been busy running the errands that i have taken for granted when i was in canada. for instance, today i had to go open a new bank accoutn so i left work a bit early. they were really nice, but it just took a really long time. and then, i went to get my new celly fone. i originally wanted to go for the cheapest one, a nokia, but when i saw it it person, it looked really bad. it looked like it was 50 years old or something. it was also huge. almsot the size of a walkie talkie. ne way, so i went with the samsung one. it wouldve almost cost the same, except that the nokia one had a mail in rebate special. but now i have a sexy fone:). lol....

so the last few days have been quite eventful. although i feel that i will be too tired to write it all out. i will highlight that my expoeriece with the transit system here has not been too great, but i believe that i have gotten the worst of it over, and better things will come. for instance, the first day comiing back from work, soem guy at a bus stop tells the bus driver to call the cops when she pulls the bus over to the stop for people to get on. he said that he had been robbed, but the other 2 guys that were also standing there. there was some argueing shouting, denial, and then we had to wait for the police to come. the 2 guys took off. the bus driver could not drive off. so we waited. and then another bus pulls up, and we all kinda pile into that one cuz we just want to go home. and this doesnt even involve us! and when i get on the bus, who do i see, but the 2 guys hiding in the back. i was so scared. i know i tend to exaggerate things, but u never know right. ne way, i just tired to hide in my seat, cuz the driver wouldnt let people get off. it seemed like the longest half hour of my life. i guess i mustve looked really scared, cuz the guy next to me asked me if i was ok? and not to worry cuz he would protect me. right.

ne way, the cops came, and they got the two guys. they were questioning them when we finally left. whew! i know i always think of the worst case scenario, but i imagined it escalating, and you never know with people.

backtracking to the weekend that just passed, i did go out on sunday. to harvard square. i think i basically live right next to cambridge. did some window shopping. foudn a store that sold MIT stuff and harvard stuff. :) who wants harvard or MIT stuff? :D the store is huge! 2 floors!

ne way, just some random stuff i notice:
- the sidewalks are made of bricks
- there are a lot of one ways
- intersections dont intersect at 90 degrees
- lots of zigzagging, looping roads
- buses come 5 minutes earlier than when they say
- there's a lot of yielding in traffice
- there is a high expectation of other to yield as well, people cut off buses like crazy
- some buses have gps systems that tell u the next stop
- some buses dont have bells that work and u need to shout to the bus driver
- boston people have an accent
- no one knows that "roots" is
- there is only a 5% sales tax
- they still highlight or circle (with pen) transfer slips

thats all for now... more updates to come

o yea, one more thing. i have these little cafe's at work. basically a little kitchenette with coffeemakes and stuff. there are so many flavours to choose from! its those coffee machines where you can choose ur own gourmet coffee, and it makes it in a cup... SO COOL! yes i am easily amused.

Departure Day

so i have been sitting in the waiting lounge for about 3 hours now cuz i had missed my 10 24 flight in the morning. baggage and customs took long, and they looked thru everything in my bag, even confiscated my manicure scissors. which does make me feel more safer that they had found it. ne way, i was put on the next plane out cuz i thought i had about 10 - 15 minutes to spare, when i got to the lounge, when in fact, my flight had already boarded. i only found out when they were calling for the next flight, scheduled for 10 35, and i asked what happened to the boston flight. lesson 1 for today, even though it says 10 24, u cannot board at 10 24.

it was kinda funny, cuz when i asked the women, she said that the flight was closed. i had never heard of that phrase before, what does close mean? had it left yet? ne how, she was very calm about it, almost waved me off, but not in a dismissing way, more like a calm down, its no big deal kind of way. so i was a bit more calm. one of the things i have picked up on, perhaps from experience is that if the other person is not too concerned about it, it probably means that it is easily fixable. and i know that i worry too much ne way. so she assured me that i would be on the next plane out and that she would get me another ticket and ensure that my baggage would be with me. the funny thing is, i kinda forgot all about my baggage. when she said that i was thinking, o yea, all my stuff. =P

ne way, im a bit hungry, but i dont want to eat too much. i have a coffee crisp in my backpack, so mebbe i'll munch on that. i already got some chicken soup. i've never been on a plane before, so im not sure if its similar to riding a roller coaster, and i dont want to throw up or anything.
so i have been keepying myself busy making a few videos and reading my new book, "something borrowed" by emily griffen. now to just double check on my flight, and break out the coffee crisp and continue my book. i love chick lits :).

...

ok so its now 3 hours later, and im awaiting the 5 00 flight to boston because the 1 55 was cancelled. grrrr... see i should prob feel fustrated, agitated, mebbe even scared, but im surprisingly calm. im not usually a calm person in situations. i called home, called darrick, called my land lady to let them all know and not to worry. my parents are pretty worried, my mom said that she didnt even want to go out grocery shopping until i land safe and sound. awwww... but i insisted that she should go grocery shopping and i will call home as soon as i can. the ladies who helped me out were really nice, and i know they were trying their best to find me a flight soon. i know it wasnt their fault, and it was nice to have some sympathy.

im trying to rationalize why i dont feel scared, and so far, ive been able to come up with that ive worked at the airport and am quite familiar with all the terminals. its almost like im just slacking off from work or soemthing. or mebbe its because, i havent really left yet.

i had grabbed a tuna fish sandwich for lunch - a ridiculous $6 00 sandwich might i add. but i decided i needed something more than a muffin to last me until dinner basically. i also had a carton of milk - brain food. and somehow the cashier rang it up to total $ 4 15. the milk itself cost $1 99. so im not sure what he punched in, but im cheap and at that very moment, very dishonest. as i started to eat my sandwich, i realized how dishonest the sandwich people were! they cut the sandwich in half and display it, but they basically only spread the tuna in the middle! i had to spread it evenly through out, and realized how very little tuna was used. hmmmph!

in a way, i feel more safe, and less alone with all my belongings with me. i whip out my laptop every once in while to type, can look through pictures on my camera, and then i have my book. i also have a letter from my lil sis that has instructions, "to be read on the plane." although i doubt that she anticipated that i would still be on this side of the border almost 6 hours after they left me. i will still wait for the plane. i havent cried too much yet, although i did as i said my last goodbyes for four months. i later realized i walked thru customs and baggage checking resembling half a panda with my smudge eyeliner.
ne way, it is now 4 15, and i will make my final trip to the bathroom while still on land. so i will be way early for my flight. ciao!

Starting to Unpack to Pack

so i have been instructed by parents to unload all my stuff from the boxes in the downstairs foyer and make organize all my belongings. its kinda wierd that my worldly belongings can be packed and unpacked so quickly in just about 10 boxes. so in my room is a few piles of stuff, that i have categorized. techy stuff, clothes stuff, momentos stuff and dirty laundry stuff. its kinda sad packing with my sisters all around me, helping me, and joking around with me. makes me realize how much i'll miss them. miss the giggling and talking and just doing nothing.

carolyn stayed home from school today cuz she was sick, and i took her to the doctors this afternoon. she is much better now! im a good doctor! or nurse... caregiver. me and darrick will be heading to toronto tomorrow so i can get my stitches removed from my teeth. and do a little bit of shopping around:). havent gone shopping with my darrick in a while.

i feel its kinda wierd. u know, it doesnt seem like a countdown until the day i leave. but plans are made during dinner of when to have what. and it kinda scares me cuz it makes it seem scarier, cuz its made a big deal...

my mom was scaring me the other day. she told me to check my walls and washrooms for hidden camera's and stuff, in case my roommates are pervs and pyschos. that stuff scares me. and i know that i should be cautious, but just thinking of people like that scares me.

ne way, im falling asleep now. so i'll just finish packing later.

Home Sweet Home

finally home. so exams are finally done and i think that i will be writing in my blog again soon. boston is less than a week away, and i want to share it and remember it. im excited, but at the mement, im just really scared. im not sure what to expect and im afraid that i dont have everything ready and im afriad to be all alone in anohter country. (even if its just the states). ne way, today is the day that i go back to uw and move my stuff that has been packed away in boxes in the living room of my apartment.

so i have just spent the last day or so kinda lazy around. i got my wisdom tooth pulled the day i got back cuz i wanted to get it over with. it stil kinda hurts now and i cant eat too much. only mushy things, and not hot stuff. im so afraid of pain, as soon as i feel some pain coming back, down goes the tylenol 2!

ne ways, so i was just reading the star, and was reading about prom stuff. the article is called, "like a wedding, if you leave out the "i do" part. which is interesting cuz it wasnt taht long ago that i had my prom. 4 yrs... hmmm.... ne way, 2 of my cousins also have their proms coming up and we're goign shopping this sunday with her to help her pick out some stuff. ne way, as i was reading this article, it seemed kinda silly and at the same time scary. i dont recall going thru all this stuff when i was getting ready for prom. it seems ridiculous, if u ask me. the article was prob on more extreme cases, but it just goes to show, how extreme prom can be.

it almost seems like these girls are just makign trouble for themselves. having to have unique dresses that some of them are going to the states to look for them. and even bashing the dresses at fairweather cuz they are the cheap versions. i thought fairweather dresses are nice. shoes, hair and makeup, manicures and pedicures, some even want their bf to work out cuz they dont want a potbelly. who gets a pot belly when they're 17 ne way!? o, and apparently limos are the old thing, since its not unique enough. these people were looking for a red double decker bus. and not to mention hotel rooms too. apparently people were looking at over $1000. idunno, i just dont remember prom ever being so complicated and expensive. i think peope just try to make it complicated, kinda like wanted to live a celebrity life for a night or soemthing. why does it have to be so unique, isnt prom just supposed to be fun time to spend together before everyone separates for university or college or work. my prom was very memorable, and i believe its the fun time u spend together thats the most important, not the $600 hand made dress.

Reading Days

So my reading days are almost over now.... and i have not done much work. ive slept more than i have in a long time. :) in fact, more of yesterday was spent sleeping away, which is kinda a good thing. slept in until about 2 00 pm and then woke up. fell asleep again at 5 30 ish watching darrick and his freinds play smash. then woke up at 7 to go to dc to work on my stupid water lab due the coming tuesday.

didnt go home for reading days cuz i wanted to get some stuff done, and thought that i would be relaxed more here, instead of rushing home for a few days and rushing here back for sunday. timen seems to go by so fast now. i must be getting old. lol

u know, i was thinking that way back before i was in university, that me and darrick will be on stream until my 3a. it seemed so long ago at that time, but now, im in 3a!!! and we'll be offstream soon :(. time really flies by.

i was reading this article in imprint the other day and it about a girl comparing the girls that are on the tv that are the new icons. she compared people like buffy, the spice girls, joey (from dawson's creek) to today's stars, like mischa from oc (i dont watch tv, and that's all taht she mentioned in her artcile). it got me thinking that in a way, its just fads, but also in another way, its like the whole era of girl power is gone. like buffy would fight monsters and go to school and never need any guys help, and only make a few mistakes, whereas the oc girl is just the opposite. and u cant forget the spcie girls! i stil listen to their songs, so upbeat and happy. ne way, just somthing that i was thinkng bout. kinda sad, i like the girl power era!

so i have been slacking off on my reading days. i did just finish my part of the cleaning of my place though. i was going to clean my room, but then i decided taht i havent been keeping up with my blogs. so i decided to blog. ne way, i also called my parents and talked to them for a bit. i cant believe that the term is almost over and i still havent seen them yet. :(. its just so damn busy! i wish someone had warned me that i would have to work 24 /7 for 3B!... ok mebbe not 24/7, but soemthing close to that. my bedtime has been moved from 11 30 to about 12 30 now. grrrr..... ok wait, someone did warn me, but i wish they warned me in a more serious manner, that way i would have taken it more seriously!

o well, what can i do!? did i mention that i feel like i'll fail structural analysis?! yes, i feel like i will. did i meniton also that i used to be good at it? yea, i did, but taht feels like anohter life time ago... when statics made sense. now, its that damn pool of wisdom and mine is empty! yea, my prof keeps talking about a "pool of wisdom" and stuff to put in it. i say, that when i get to be his age (** oooo i shudder) i might have a pool of wisdom too. but for now, im happy with looking up values in a table!!!!

so i've been thinking bout exchange more, and talking to various ppl bout it, freinds, family, and i'm debating to switch my terms around. right now im leaning more towards just going on my work term instead of switching my work term and school term. the only problem i see is taht all my savings will be gone!!!!! no more gic.... i'lll be paying for 3 terms straight with my savings plus money from the coming work term.... but i think it'll be worth it. i feel like this route is a little less risky than doing my 3b there. ne way... more time to think bout it....

im thinking that i'll be taking a plane to boston. my first plane ride ever! so excited! my parents are thingking bout coming to get me and making a family trip to boston at the end of august too! i think they're pretty excited too :). so many people to come visit me! i feel so loved :). lol.... linda and elaine need to come tooo! and justin and darrick and their road trip crew too! ne way, i better start filling out the applicaitons. i need to find a place to live too. so much work to doo.... but at least i feel refreshed. o yea.... 12 hours of sleep is GREAT!

o yea.. i almost forgot to record taht yan and allen were pretty durnk from bomber on wednestday. lol.... to be honest, i was a bit scared and amused at the same time. u could tell allen was out of it, cuz he could barely walk and his eyes were glazed. he also tried to do some crazy things, like brush his teeth in the sink, and starting to pour water on himself, and being amused "look, my pants are wet". lol... ne way, im not sure if id like to be drunk. i wonder what i'll be like... lol.... darren said taht yan was bangin his head against the elevator and saying that it was refjecting him.... lol

ne way.... back to room cleaning!

Boston and Singapore... wow!

well, its been pretty busy the past few weeks. im so bogged down by work, i cant wait for my 2 crummy reading days to come so i can finally catch up and also go out!

so much has happened in the past couple/few weeks that i dont think i can properly recap. lets start with the most recent. last night being valentines day! :) my sweetie, darrick made me feel so special. chocolate and roses will always make my day! a little sleepy from the wine... i had made reservation at east sides, at con's discretion, as she didnt want me and darrick to spend anohter valentines day at harveys.... lol... but we stayed home instead and had some nice home cooked food with candles :) MUAH! to my darrick <3 <3

last weekend was pretty much just catching up madly due to studying for midterms like a crazy women all last week! i had midterms everyday (monday to thursday).... grrrrr... all assignments and labs were pushed back til monday, so there was 2 labs and 2 assignments due on monday! grrrr.... stayed so late at library / school finishing up the stuff.... :( i see the same thing happening this weekend! ..... i need s break!

at least on friday me and jo went shopping! it was so fun! there was so much stuff on sale! it seems that every time i go shopping theres always stuff on sale! for instance, the first store we went into was suzy shiers (my favourite store, might i add), and we got sweaters for 2 for $10! i had already one of them in black, but i got a tan one ne ways cuz it was so cheap. i never get tired of their t shirts and tank tops so i got them too. and earrings were so cheap! $2!!!!!! so i got 2 pairs.... :D:D:D then ameirican eagle had some stuff on sale too. got darrick a sweatshirt (but its too small) and myself a long sleeve t shirt. then off to jacobs! jacobs would also be my favourite store if it wasnt so damn expensive! but today, being my licuky day, i tgot stuff on sale. a reallly cool sweater that used to be $50, but is now $15! heheheh... and hat and scarves and gloves.... all under $3 !!!! so cheap so cheap!!!! cheap stuff makes me happppy :D:D.... ok... a little crazy there.... i still spent $126.... but the biore nose strips really tipped me over... they cost almost $20 on their own!

letsee on thursday was my darricks bday! he's so old now! 23!!!!! im dating an old dude! lol.... ne way, we went out for wings that night after his basketball game. basket ball game was fun to watch, brutal to keep score.... me and vicky kept score, and she knew basketball stuff but i didnt... so basicaly the refs were explaining everything to us.... we forgot to set the timer, and did a few things probably wrong, but they were pretty paitent with us and tried not to make us feel bad... i think its cuz we're girls, no wait, i know its cuz we're girls... darrick said that if guys did that... they would be made to feel stupid, they cant just laugh and smile their way out of things.... lol

so we went for wings at mortys. man, those are some genetically engineered chicken wings! they were so huge. i think this was the first time that i had gone drinking iwth darrick. i was a bit worried when he chugged a few times, but i was feeling a little tipsy myself... heels, alcohol and icy streeets, i almost slipped a few times... im not sure how much darrick had to drink, mebbe 5 - 6 pints, i had 3.... i wonder if i said ne ting stupid...i dont think i was that out of it.... o yea, and jo and i decorated the place after our stupid transport midterm that went very badly!!!! we got balloons and streamers from farahs... lol... and made a banner :D and i got ice cream cake! yummy chocolate ice cream cake! (i ended up melting it the next day by leaving it in the fridge over night ** sob :(:( )

o yea, i got job offer to boston for a consulting company, SGH. im in the builidng science department. at first when i saw the words "offer" in jobmine, i wasnt sure what to think! i was scared, so i kinda screamed, and darrick came runing thinking someting was wrong with me. then he saw it and congratulated me... i was so scared... still am scared. see, im a really big baby. im anything BUT a risk taker! i usually do things with some sort of goal in my mind, im not the type to realy just leap into something and see how it goes.... ive been told im really protected and really dont know much bout the world around me. and it is true. but at the same time, sometimes i like it that way... but other times, i feel kinda "stuck". see, i've kinda had this feeling of being "stuck" for a while. mebbe it was seeing darrick go away to cali.... mebbe it was realizing that i've never really been anywhere, and that a part of me wants to just go everywhere and see everything. but at the same time, a part of me is afriad to leave...

see school and work have started to become a cycle now. and theres been some stuff at school, that is just stupid... ive been forgetting but there are some sores htat just keep popping up all the time.... someimte i just wanna leave it behind, and see all thats out there. i guess tahts why i wanted to go on exchange in another country. a part of me yearns to step out of my safety box. the boston job was more of a fluke, but also was a bit of step. it was a fluke cuz i basically applied cuz my friend applied and i wanted to show him that he was not even qualified, but if he could apply, then i definitely could too. and then i end up gettiing the interview and eventually the offer. imagine my surprise. now, im kinda excited bout it. con, elaine, and darrick said they would visit me! mebbe even jusitn since he said something bout summer road trip to boston... lol i've never been so far from home. i feel excited and scared at the same time... wish me luck!

singapore application is going.... i just saw my associate chair and got some guidanc eon course approvals. now i just need to choose them and he'd approve what he thought were equivalents. just need to get the signatures after that and set up an interview with the singapore coordinator! but i wont be here to see darrick's symposium and ask him querstions and stuff.... i know i'll miss out on stuff here too... :( i'll miss darrick so much when/if i go to singapore.. but its a really great oppurtunity! darrick wants me to go too... to see more of the world... and learn more..... i want to learn more too... sometimes i feel like li live in such a small world, only cuz i feel so familiar to the same things.... i want to be in wonder... in awe of things... and i wanna travel, like darrick did. and then i wanna travel with darrick, but there doesnt seem to be a chance for it yet.

alrighty... enough blabbing.... back to geotech eng!

A Long and Crappy Day

its been a long day, therefore it has been a crappy day! yup, thats my philosophy... and its still not over, a 3h class in a little bit. just enough time to blog a bit

letsee.... im listening to Crazy by aerosmith, i like.... i think its old, but i feel like im going crazy now....

this chinese new year will not be spent collecting money, but catching up like a mad woman. i have a presentation and 2 assignments due the monday, and a calculus quiz on the wednesday, and perhaps a lab on monday and a report due on monday (depending if the ta is nice and merciful). perhaps more assignments to come and more fun stuff.

i am totally lost in calc... i hate it.... i dont think i've hated calculus before. tonights stv class will be spent catching up on notes, and assignments that i can somehow concentrate on during my incompetents prof's lecture of blah blah blah.... hopefully this time i can get my laptop and the wirelesss up and running so that I can occupy myself and do something useful!

yes, and must write that essay for stv too... that shouldnt be too bad... i will look for the article in class.

yea... this term is going to hard... im kinda worried... i dont think ive been this worried before about school, mebbe during 1B.

anyway, time to eat dinner and get ready for class!

o yes, my new favourite quote. i know its mean, but i still like it.

"some people are like slinkies. they dont have a particular use, but still bring a smile to your face when you push them down the stairs"

Its an ICERINK out there

so im back from my SUPER long day at school.... about 9 30 am - almost 10 30pm. geeeezzzzzzz couldnt even work on my assignment in class due to my laptop not working and HORRIBLE battery life!!

note to self: next time i get a laptop, battery life and portability are important factors!

so last week and this week up to this morning was spent mostly on work term report.... damn those things.... every little thing takes so long.... i should have done more of it at work when i was bored...

anyway, its been freezing raining here and i shudder to think of how tomorrow morning will be like. debating whether to wear con's snow boots or my sneakers. my sneakers have no grip, but con's boots are a little heeled. it took me almost 10 min to get to cph today! i live across the street and a bit only!

this week is mad catching up. lots and lots of assignments to do and reading to catch up on. profs are pretty bad this term. lets go thru them:

Transportation: this one is not to bad. his voice kinda sounds like kermit with a chinese accent, but other than that, he's pretty clear, decent notes. my one complaint is that the dinky (300pg) textbook costs $120+! o well, we just photocopied it! hehehe.... im a rebel! :P

Structures: this one is pretty bad. apparently my prof had taught one of my previous prof who has already retired!! anyway, this guy seems to have a tendancy of making things harder than they are. i mean, ive done virtual work and other stuff he's talked about, but it just seems so much harder!!! too many symbols!!!! and i heard his exams and assignments are pretty brutal... :( o well, what can i do..... must read text and review notes this weekend!!

Water Quality: this prof is pretty good so far. kinda goes off on tangents, but his notes are great. we'll see after assignment one and the labs next week....

Geotechnical Engineering: what can i say, MK teaches this class... must read notes... his assignments already had so many changes to it... o yea, his lectures are pretty sleep worthy. he doesnt seem to know a lot, but what he knows for sure, he lkes to repeat it throughout the entire lecture. for instance, lecture 1 i learned, "rocks are hard". 2nd lecture, "sands are not as hard as rocks". 3rd lecture "water makes rocks wet". i was in a daze and copied that down... :S

Calculus: 5th calc course and LAST thank goodness! the prof is all over the place, our assignemnt had NOTHING to do with what we did in class. yet another self teach course... his voice is also perfect for puttting people to sleep. his notes dont make much sense, have titles really, or explainations... it jsut seems to have some letters ...

STV: yes, thats STV and NOT STD. this prof is a nut. he doenst seem to have any worth listening to, and his voice just DRONES AND DRONES.... i think i would pay more attention if i recorded him for the 2 hours and then played it at home fast forwarded. i just want it to be a high mark class, i'll need it this term for sure....

this seems to be a long term where my text books are once again my good freinds. good bye to carefree second year.... i suppose the only good news so far is that i am DONE my WTR and i have an INTERVIEW! yup, its with a water company, so we'll see!

Back at Loo

well, actually i've been back for a week, now. havent really been keeping up with blogging, really busy with classes, stupid wtr, and just basically settling back into school mode. went on my ski trip with darrick this weekend! it was great! im really a chicken, idunno, im just so scared that i'll break something, and i need more confidence going down the hills. darrick was really patient with me though, :), and we both had a lot of fun.

we stayed at the village lodges, and went night skiing on saturday night. i scared driving so far in the dark, everything was just black and deserted, and i should have gotten better directions. but we got there alright, with the help of a trusty ontario map. darrick said he should have gotten the gps software thingy, that basically you put on your laoptop and it just navigates for you and talks to you too. unfortunately, navigating is not one of my fortes...

sking was fun, we went down the beginners ones only, but the one we ended going on the most was pretty high up and long. i dont like the lift ride much, its so jolty and i feel like i might just fall out! the lodge itself was really nice, i wish i took a picture of it before we messed it up... lol it was really nice to just spend time with my darrick without school, worries, etc...

coming back was also a little scary. since we got the bed and breakfast pkg, we just left shortly after breakfast so that we would get home earlier and darrick could finish his wtr! we HATE highway 19, its everywhere, it seemed that we passed by a high way 19 almost 5 times!!! anywa, we were trying to turn around cuz we got to a more deserted residential road, and practially slid sideways into someone's driveway. the driveways there are reallllllly long and some can be pretty steep. this one wasnt even that steep! anyway, justin's poor neon, went down to the bottem and couldnt get back up. we were stuck! o, and did i mention that there were NO TRESPASSING signs nailed on the trees next to the driveway entrance? we didnt mean to trespsass, it just happened, the guy wasnt too happy (to say the least) and left us there as he roared off in his truck! anyhow, darrick tried pushing, but all that was happening, since there was at least a 2 inch layer of ice/snow underneath, the car just kept sliding, and melting the snow, and the snow just kept freezing back into ice.

so, darrick told me to see if i could get anyone to stop and help us out. i waved to a pontiac hatchback, with 3 guys in it, explained the situation and asked if they could help push us out. and they did, and it worked, and we were off and on our way home again. my timmies coupons were put to good use, their fruit yogurt is pretty good! much better than mcdonalds. i had to get new eyeliner on my way back, cuz my old one was gunky, so we stopped at conestoga mall, and i got a new pair of runners! a pair of kool looking sketchers for only $40!

got home, took a nap, cooked some beans, and didnt do ANY work all night! now i gtg buy some books, and continue cracking down on my work term report!!!

it was a great trip, and pics are posted in my msn space! i wanna go back again for reading week with more people! thanks again for the car, justin!

http://spaces.msn.com/members/catsbluecastle/

ps. i originally started this blog so that i could keep in touch with my friends , and family that i didnt get to see as much. it really helped me update little things that happened in my life, especially to darrick since he was in cali. i find it quite therapeutic and calming, and helps me "record" events, so i can look back on it. im going to keep updating it, as best as i can, perhaps not as frequently, cuz i really do enjoy writing. besides, my english needs a lot of brushing up! lol....