Hips don't lie...

i love that song... and now everyone in my class knows.

my cellie went off in class yesterday, and since that has never happened to me before, i kinda panicked. and, instead of pressing a button to turn off the sound, like a sane person, i just took my bag and basically ran out of the classroom... and i was sitting in the middle, at least i was in the back....yea.... im embarrassing...

so here i am on a friday night doing hw. well, im sorta doing homework, im also in the process of learning some taiwanese from these new cd i bought when i went to china town last weekend. so far, i sorta learned one song. i wrote out the phonetics next to the characters. its kinda hard to learn / read since was taught to read in mandarin or cantonese, i naturally tend toward the mandarin pronunciation...

a long weekend is coming up... not sure what to do. not sure if i should go home ... darrick had mentioned a trip to montreal mebbe, and i'll have to see how it goes. im kinda hooked on this travelling thing. i love seeing new places, new things, and trying new foods. there is just a feeling that i get when i get to see in real life what i read in books or see on tv. you know that movie, good will hunting... im gonna watch it again, jsut so i can point out all the places i've been to, since it was filmed at harvard. i just think its so kool.

so quite a few people in my class are going into this exchange program. s far, i know of me, jo and pete to singapore the coming january, a couple guys are in australia right now, and a couple girls are in switzerland. im really excited, as the time is nearing...

i think i saw an engagement ring on this girl in my class's finger today. i also knew that another guy in my class got married over the summer and he's a year younger than me. it seems kinda scary that this is happening to people around me. it kinda makes me feel old. i cant help but wonder what i want. its hard to beleive that im in 3B, almost done uni. when i started uni, it seemed that 5 years would be such a long time, and that there was not really a need to think about what to do after. but now, i need to start. its also kinda scary seeing darrick and some of my friends about to graduate in less than a year.... it was almost like these 5 years we were put in a incubator, and now we need to face the real world. its a thought thats both scary and exciting to me.

what i think im afraid of most is screwing up. how do i know if the decision im making is right for me? i mean, there really arent that many life altering decisions that i have had to make so far... just choose what courses to take, where to live, how to budget, what jobs to apply to... but everything was "temporary". after im done with a course, its over.. after a coop term, its done... but all the decisions i make after i graduate are permanent... where to live, what job to take (ts no longer just a 4 month thing, what do i see myself doing for the rest of my life?) all the grown up decisions are on me... and what if i screw up or decide wrong? pick the wrong job... what if i grow tired of the job, or end up not liking it... or what if its too far from my family...

i guess at least i can put these decisons off for a bit more... time to sleep now...

Home

just went home this weekend for a dentist appt on sunday. its nice to be back at home. been thinking bout some stuff. such as what if i were not to work in toronto after graduation. its nice to have my family close. although i feel its almost a different type of closeness now taht im not home that much.

now im just procrastinating. must finish my systems assignment and my work term report and ura.

i just went on someone's website and they had a lot of pics up of them in different "outfits". some looked really really nice. mebbe i should exercise my photography skills. until then, back to systems.....

Back at H2O LO2.... (waterloo)

so its back into the cycle that has become so familiar with me. so there has been a few changes, and some things just dont change. im a bit behind on my postings.

its still kinda hard to beleive taht i've left boston behind me. it was kidna strange leaving on the fung wah bus to new york city with all my stuff in the bottom compartment. i kinda expected an overwhleming feeling of something.... but that didnt happen. in fact, i was listening to my new mp3 player to goo goo dolls - let love in - and it almost felt like a movie, when the person just watches a part of their life go by them and the perfect song is playing in the background. only minus the emotional part.

boston with darrick was a lot of fun. it almost felt like we werent apart for that long, even though it did feel too long at times. unfortunately, the weather was unkind to darrick's stay, and we experienced what i call typical boston weather for 4/5 days that darrick was in boston. typical boston weahter is blah... just rain, rain and more rain. no sunset cruise (due to no sun) to see the city fromn the charles river.... but we did do LOTS of shopping. pics will be posted in my space soon.

nyc was also a lot of fun. although a little short. but then, new york is a place that i like to visit only for a few days. everything happens so fast, everyone is so fast paced. it just gets tiring for me. i would like to go back mebbe for a long weekend or something if its cheap... :D we also saw mamma mia! it was a really good musical, i liked it more than rent. i even have the cd! now to transfer all those songs onto my mp3 player... i think im hooked on this travelling thing. having never travelled much in my life prior to boston, i feel like i cant get enough of it. theres so much to see, experience and taste. and its great sharing it with darrick:).

ne way, back to waterloo and school stuff. ive decided to sign up for a few things this term. such as a URA in the field of buildig science. ive gotten that worked out to be something like a 6 hours a week. and then i also signed up to be a calc TA for the first years once a week for 2 hours. this should be interesting. also hope to be htting the gym more. we'll see how that goes too.

ne ways, parent comgin up tomorrow. to drop off food. which is strange because they never do that, im ususally left to fend for myself for food. but i know there's an alternative motive. and im not too happy about taht nor do i really know how to deal with it. how do you tell someone no when they cant seem to take no for an answer? its really frustrating, and complicated. i've pretty much been living on my own for the past 2 - 3 years, whether it be at school or on work term. of which the previous 4 months were spent in another country on my own, where i worked and paid for everything on my own. it seems taht no matter what i do, it doesnt seem to score points for me being a responsile individual who can make my own decisions. grrrr!!!!