Relaxing Weekend :)

This weekend was very productive and relaxing at the same time. I can't remember when was the last time I spent the entire day doing no homework.

What I did this weekend:
- Found a home for September work term! :)
- Went to Carolyn's Student Life 101 orientation thingy and felt like froshie again
- Went out to Bomber for the first time this term ( I still don't see what's the big deal about it...)
- Cleaned my bathroom, mopped and vacuumed my basement
- Did ALL my laundry
- Cleaned my room completely
- Revised my Summer 2007 playlist
- Made another ice cream / gelato / frozen yogurt place discovery
- Flooded my basement (sort of)
- Showed my family my grad pictures which turned out horrible!! :(

I can't believe next week is the last of classes. Not that I'm complaining. This term has gone by so quickly, and I'm wondering if this is how "old" people feel. I remember having this "time goes faster as you age" theory when I was in grade 1. I remember thinking at the end of grade 1, that grade 1 went by much faster than kindergarten. And then, I had another reflection after grade 2 that grade 2 went by much faster than grade 1. At that time, I concluded that the school years must be getting shorter and shorter, and was really confused when my mom showed the calender that proved it wasn't. Anyway, I really think that time goes by faster as you get older, and the important thing is to enjoy it and cherish it.

I really love this song by John Stamos from Full House, back in the day! :) His voice sounds sooooo good! Yes, I definitely want him to sing forever.

Forever - John Stamos

If every word I said
Could make you laugh
I'd talk forever (together my love)
I'd ask the sky just what we had
It showed forever
(together my love)
If the song I sing to you
Could fill your heart with joy
I'd sing forever
(together my love)

Forever, forever
I've been so happy loving you

(together my love)
Let the love I have for you live in your heart
And be forever
(together my love)

Forever, forever
I've been so happy loving you

(musical break)

If every word I said could make you laugh
I'd talk forever

Na na na na na na, na na na na na na...

Forever, forever
I'll be so happy loving you

Because of You

You know when you hear a song that just makes you want to move / dance? For some reason, I woke up with this song in my head, and therefore, have been listening to it all day! So catchy :) I'm dancing as I type.

Because Of You - Ne-Yo

(Ouu Ouu Ouu)
(Mmdouou..ooh)
(Ouuohh Ouuohhouuoh wouh)
(Mm..ah)

Want to but I can't help it.
I love the way you feel.
This got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real.
I need it when I want it.
I want it when I don't.
Tell myself I'd stop everyday,
Knowing that I won't

I got a problem and I.. (don't know what to do about it)
Even if I did, I don't know if i would quit
But I doubt it. I'm,
Taken by the thought of it..

And I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction.
I'm so strung out on you
I can barely move...but I like it,
So, then it's all because of you (all because of you)
So, then it's all because of you (all because of you)
And it's all because of you (all because of you)
So, then it's all because...
Never get enough,
She's the sweetest drug.

Think of it every second,
I can't get nothing done.
Only concern is the next time, I'm 'gon get me some.
Know I should stay away from,
Cause it's no good for me.
I try and try but my obsession, won't let me leave.

I got a problem and I (don't know what to do about it)
Even if I did I don't know if i would quit
But I doubt it. I'm,
Taken by the thought of it. (heeyh..)

And I know this much is true,
Baby, you have become my addiction.
I'm so strung out on you, (strung out on you..)
I can barely move...but I like it, (but I like it..)
So, then it's all because of you (all because of you) (aey!)
So, then it's all because of you (all because of you)
And it's all because of you (all because of you)
So, then it's all because...
Never get enough (Never get enough..)
She's the sweetest drug.

Ain't no doubt.... (no doubt heayh)
So strung out. (Strung out heeayh)
Ain't no doubt....
So strung out. (heahheh!)
Over you,
Over you,(yooouuu)
Over you(yooouuu)...

(Mmouhh)

(Because of you)
(And it's all because of you)
(mm)
(Never get enough)
(She's the sweetest drug)

...She's the sweetest drug...

Firsts

There is something about a first anything, that makes it different from all the ones that come after it. That's not to say that the first is the best, or worst, there's just the innocence and excitement of it, that's incomparable to the second or third time or the following times. Once in a while, something happens that brings back those feelings, and just reliving them is like watching your favourite moments in an old favourite movie.

My favourite firsts:
first kiss
first hand holding
first dance
first serenade
first love
first date
first crush

The feeling of your heart quickening, the excitement, anticipation, the wonder of not knowing what's going to happen next, but willing to put yourself out there, just see what will happen next... I know there are people who are skeptical of putting themselves out there, cuz they are afraid of getting hurt, or hurting others. But, my philosophy is, if you didn't try, you will never know. Despite being hurt, I can see myself putting myself out there, again, when I'm ready. Why? Simple, because it's worth it.

"So live like you mean it
Love 'til you feel it
It's all that we need in our lives"
- GGD

I don't believe in love at first sight, I believe in attraction and chemistry at first sight.
I believe in love, and I believe you need to take risks for love.
I don't believe in soulmates, but I do believe that you can find someone who can compliment you and bring out the best in you, and you wouldn't know how your world with be without them.

Sex and the City

Another one of my favourite shows of all time :). One of my friends has a favourite line, that she says at the end of anything, which is, "it's a learning experience." I always laugh at her, but now that I think about it, I guess it's true.

A lot of things have been happening in my life this past little while, and I guess I can say a lot of it is a "learning experience." So, like the women in Sex and the City, I'm constantly learning and questioning the opposite sex and myself. There used to be so many things that I used to judge, and think to myself, "I would never do that." But, I guess as I get older, there are even more shades of grey, and things that I might not have done before, don't really seem so bad anymore. I guess when you're young, its a lot easier to set boundaries for yourself, cuz you're not at that crossroad yet, and you have a more naive, innocent and objective perspective. At least that's what I think...

I used to think that a boyfriend was supposed to be a best friend and lover, but I've changed my mind on that. I think that you can be great friends, but I'm not sure if I can ever have that type of trust, again. That dependency from both parties, I think, is just too much. I mean, who do you turn to when the two of you have problems? I know that you are supposed to work it out between the two of you, but I find sometimes that there are so many things that you don't see when you're in the situation yourself. I mean, I feel a lot better talking to my girlfriends about these types of problems. Not only do I get support, but I also get another opinion that may have taken me, lets say almost 6 months to reach.

So, it's a learning experience. And I can't say that never again, will I let anyone guilt trip me, blame me for their mistakes, or make me feel bad about hurt that they caused themselves, but I will definitely stand up for myself more. I leave with a clean conscience, I have never tried to intentionally hurt the people I care or cared about. And, I can live with that.

It's summer time, and with this beautiful weather, I can't help but just want to enjoy it as much as I can. Of course, this little thing called school, is getting in the way for the past week or so. The girls and I decided that it was high time for a girl's night out this term. The date is set for this coming Thursday, when my reports will have been handed in and FINISHED with! The plan is to head over the Ceasar's for dinner and follow up with a night out dancing. Outfit choices have already been made on Con's, Christine's and my parts (what else do a bunch of girls do on a Saturday night after spending the entire day at school?!) My first time out to Ceasar's was last last Thursday for Jo's birthday. I hadn't had that much fun in a long time, there's just something really fun about dancing while a little drunk. :P

Things that I like this summer:
- I like dressing up and trying more ambitious clothes
- I like shopping for pretty clothes :) and ACCESSORIES (yea, I'm learning...)
- I like attention
- I like swimming
- I like dancing but I may require some alcohol first (I was told that I look pretty good when I dance, and I'm milking that compliment for all that it's worth :P)
- Cute or really nice guys :)
- I like kissing
- A good dresser, but not too good....
- I like being somewhat tanned, although I would like to be lighter when I wear certain clothes, like my chinese dress :)
- I like singing and dancing in my room with bass turned up, and music blasting
- I love the new music this summer
- I like old boy bands (LFO, BSB, NSync... I'm pathetic, I can't help it)
- I like salads
- I like gin and tonic, cosmo, fuzzy naval :)
- I really like my hair colour
- I like people who make me laugh
- I like running and getting rid of this extra energy :)

The above list is in no particular order.

One of my favourite songs this summer, from the new Lifehouse album! Loving it!!!

First Time - Lifehouse

We're both looking for something
We've been afraid to find
Well, it's easier to be broken
It's easier to hide

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right where,
where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time

The world that I see inside you
Waiting to come to life
Waking me up to dreaming
Reality in your eyes

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right where,
where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time

We're crashing
Into the unknown
We're lost in this
But it feels like home

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky that's under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right where,
where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time

Like being in love she said for the first time
Like being in love to feel for the first time