Sex and the City

Another one of my favourite shows of all time :). One of my friends has a favourite line, that she says at the end of anything, which is, "it's a learning experience." I always laugh at her, but now that I think about it, I guess it's true.

A lot of things have been happening in my life this past little while, and I guess I can say a lot of it is a "learning experience." So, like the women in Sex and the City, I'm constantly learning and questioning the opposite sex and myself. There used to be so many things that I used to judge, and think to myself, "I would never do that." But, I guess as I get older, there are even more shades of grey, and things that I might not have done before, don't really seem so bad anymore. I guess when you're young, its a lot easier to set boundaries for yourself, cuz you're not at that crossroad yet, and you have a more naive, innocent and objective perspective. At least that's what I think...

I used to think that a boyfriend was supposed to be a best friend and lover, but I've changed my mind on that. I think that you can be great friends, but I'm not sure if I can ever have that type of trust, again. That dependency from both parties, I think, is just too much. I mean, who do you turn to when the two of you have problems? I know that you are supposed to work it out between the two of you, but I find sometimes that there are so many things that you don't see when you're in the situation yourself. I mean, I feel a lot better talking to my girlfriends about these types of problems. Not only do I get support, but I also get another opinion that may have taken me, lets say almost 6 months to reach.

So, it's a learning experience. And I can't say that never again, will I let anyone guilt trip me, blame me for their mistakes, or make me feel bad about hurt that they caused themselves, but I will definitely stand up for myself more. I leave with a clean conscience, I have never tried to intentionally hurt the people I care or cared about. And, I can live with that.

It's summer time, and with this beautiful weather, I can't help but just want to enjoy it as much as I can. Of course, this little thing called school, is getting in the way for the past week or so. The girls and I decided that it was high time for a girl's night out this term. The date is set for this coming Thursday, when my reports will have been handed in and FINISHED with! The plan is to head over the Ceasar's for dinner and follow up with a night out dancing. Outfit choices have already been made on Con's, Christine's and my parts (what else do a bunch of girls do on a Saturday night after spending the entire day at school?!) My first time out to Ceasar's was last last Thursday for Jo's birthday. I hadn't had that much fun in a long time, there's just something really fun about dancing while a little drunk. :P

Things that I like this summer:
- I like dressing up and trying more ambitious clothes
- I like shopping for pretty clothes :) and ACCESSORIES (yea, I'm learning...)
- I like attention
- I like swimming
- I like dancing but I may require some alcohol first (I was told that I look pretty good when I dance, and I'm milking that compliment for all that it's worth :P)
- Cute or really nice guys :)
- I like kissing
- A good dresser, but not too good....
- I like being somewhat tanned, although I would like to be lighter when I wear certain clothes, like my chinese dress :)
- I like singing and dancing in my room with bass turned up, and music blasting
- I love the new music this summer
- I like old boy bands (LFO, BSB, NSync... I'm pathetic, I can't help it)
- I like salads
- I like gin and tonic, cosmo, fuzzy naval :)
- I really like my hair colour
- I like people who make me laugh
- I like running and getting rid of this extra energy :)

The above list is in no particular order.

One of my favourite songs this summer, from the new Lifehouse album! Loving it!!!

First Time - Lifehouse

We're both looking for something
We've been afraid to find
Well, it's easier to be broken
It's easier to hide

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right where,
where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time

The world that I see inside you
Waiting to come to life
Waking me up to dreaming
Reality in your eyes

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right where,
where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time

We're crashing
Into the unknown
We're lost in this
But it feels like home

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky that's under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right where,
where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time

Like being in love she said for the first time
Like being in love to feel for the first time