Hips don't lie...

i love that song... and now everyone in my class knows.

my cellie went off in class yesterday, and since that has never happened to me before, i kinda panicked. and, instead of pressing a button to turn off the sound, like a sane person, i just took my bag and basically ran out of the classroom... and i was sitting in the middle, at least i was in the back....yea.... im embarrassing...

so here i am on a friday night doing hw. well, im sorta doing homework, im also in the process of learning some taiwanese from these new cd i bought when i went to china town last weekend. so far, i sorta learned one song. i wrote out the phonetics next to the characters. its kinda hard to learn / read since was taught to read in mandarin or cantonese, i naturally tend toward the mandarin pronunciation...

a long weekend is coming up... not sure what to do. not sure if i should go home ... darrick had mentioned a trip to montreal mebbe, and i'll have to see how it goes. im kinda hooked on this travelling thing. i love seeing new places, new things, and trying new foods. there is just a feeling that i get when i get to see in real life what i read in books or see on tv. you know that movie, good will hunting... im gonna watch it again, jsut so i can point out all the places i've been to, since it was filmed at harvard. i just think its so kool.

so quite a few people in my class are going into this exchange program. s far, i know of me, jo and pete to singapore the coming january, a couple guys are in australia right now, and a couple girls are in switzerland. im really excited, as the time is nearing...

i think i saw an engagement ring on this girl in my class's finger today. i also knew that another guy in my class got married over the summer and he's a year younger than me. it seems kinda scary that this is happening to people around me. it kinda makes me feel old. i cant help but wonder what i want. its hard to beleive that im in 3B, almost done uni. when i started uni, it seemed that 5 years would be such a long time, and that there was not really a need to think about what to do after. but now, i need to start. its also kinda scary seeing darrick and some of my friends about to graduate in less than a year.... it was almost like these 5 years we were put in a incubator, and now we need to face the real world. its a thought thats both scary and exciting to me.

what i think im afraid of most is screwing up. how do i know if the decision im making is right for me? i mean, there really arent that many life altering decisions that i have had to make so far... just choose what courses to take, where to live, how to budget, what jobs to apply to... but everything was "temporary". after im done with a course, its over.. after a coop term, its done... but all the decisions i make after i graduate are permanent... where to live, what job to take (ts no longer just a 4 month thing, what do i see myself doing for the rest of my life?) all the grown up decisions are on me... and what if i screw up or decide wrong? pick the wrong job... what if i grow tired of the job, or end up not liking it... or what if its too far from my family...

i guess at least i can put these decisons off for a bit more... time to sleep now...