Saturday, June 23, 2007

Life's Happy Moments

Last weekend, my parents and some of my relatives took a trip to Houston to visit one of my uncles for his birthday for a surprise. This uncle of mine I've met on numerous occasions, and he's always been able to make me and my sisters and cousins laugh. He reminds me of a really big kid, with his non stop jokes and humour. Even though he's really sick, he still brings a smile or chuckle to the people around him.

Last weekend, my parents and relatives went to see him because he's now in the third stage of cancer, and we're not sure how much better he will be getting. He's been seeing the doctors, taking more medicines, and is in more pain now. My parents and my relatives wanted him to have a happy birthday celebration, and wanted to celebrate it with him.

I just spoke to my dad about his visit earlier today, and he said that my uncle was so over come with emotion that he cried, when he realized that his family had flown into see him. Hearing him so happy, also made me really happy, but also sad at the same time. Sad that he has to go through so much pain, and that this is how life is. You really have to cherish the moments that are special and hold on to the people who are important to you, cuz you never know when that moment can be taken away. Also, when given a chance to make some one happy, you never know how many times that happiness is multiplied and spread to the people around them.

I guess my definition of happy moments is constantly changing. It's hard to picture a life that is without hardships, but I guess it's those moments that make your heart beat a little faster, that rush of emotion, the feeling that you are not alone, and that people care about you, that might be all happiness is.

"Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away." - Grey's Anatomy

My uncle is about the same age as my dad. In fact, they were friends before they each got married, and that's how my uncle met his wife (my aunt), and they lived in Hong Kong before my dad met my mom. Even though I am not very close to my uncle, the thought of losing someone in my family scares me. I do take my parents for granted a lot, and I know that one day they won't be here with me. I guess that day just seems so far away, and I've never imagined my life without them. I guess, I just feel so much safer in the world, knowing that my parents will always be there for me. A parents' love is the greatest, most self less gift in the world. And I don't think that my world could ever be the same without them...

I remember what my dad said when my grandmother (his mother) passed away. He just said, "I'm an orphan now." It's hard to imagine my dad, such a strong person, saying that. But it was true, at 50, my dad was now an orphan. I guess parents are like your big protector in the world. They take care of you, and keep you safe. I don't think you can really find that self less love from any one else.

I just want to take this moment to wish my uncle all the best on his birthday. He deserves all the happiness in the world, and he's still the big kid uncle (I'm actually lucky to have a few uncles like that :)). This is a song that I really like, and I think it reflects the mood of this blog. It's the new song from Goo Goo Dolls that's featured on Transformers, the movie. I LOVE this song, you should check it out!

Before It's Too Late - Goo Goo Dolls

I wander through fiction to look for the truth
Buried beneath all the lies
and I stood at a distance
To feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes

and hold on before it's too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

and the risk that might break you
Is the one that would save
A life you dont live is still lost
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it's gone

Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

So live like you mean it
Love til you feel it
It's all that we need in our lives
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it's gone

Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

It's all that we need in our lives
It's all that I need in my life

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